try a little tenderness

Sometimes, I get so focused on my own evolution since I asked my ex to leave, that I miss the obvious...

While looking at that great sea of possiblity out there, while wondering who or even if I can I connect and relate to someone again, i ran into my ex. Looking at him, I thought about the pain and sorrow he has caused. I thought about how much that pain has changed me...ultimately it has forged me into something better, kinder and stronger...

Strange reaction followed...The main emotion I had during and after the encounter was one of EMPATHY and yes, even forgiveness. He looks like hell and I believe that, after all these years of never being accountable to anything but his job, he has begun to look at his own shit...obviously it is painful.

My oldest looked at him and said, " I think it's easier to be the one who's shit on, than the one who shits...the guilt must be horrible."

I hope that feeling of pain i have felt for years and am now besting forges him into someone kinder and more thoughtful about how his actions impact others...good luck with that Ed, and I mean it. Fix your soul.