I have worked a total of 36 days in a row without a day off. I am soooo tired. I have shifted my schedule to give the employees the better shifts so that they can survive the bridge economic free-fall that is JStreet and down to DTGrumpys...All of us down, down down in $$$.
But today, a mini miracle...I got a day off. A REAL day off. Then, Kate came in and asked if she could come back to work Friday a.m.. So, I get Wednesdays off to do all of the supply errands and still get a real day offon Fridays. Jesus, Mary and Joseph, Fricking halleluia....now, it's just Monday a.m., Tuesday a.m.. Thursday p.m. Sat. p.m., Sunday a.m....all over the map but at least a schedule!!!
Maybe I'll even get out in the world and meet new, intriguing people, talk to those people, laugh withthose people...SWEET JESUS, I might even have enough energy to play with those people.
Today, fueled by said day off, I painted my old bedroom. My best friend Jay painted the ceiling for me so that I didn't have to break my no more ladders pledge. What a hon! It is soft and serene and when I finish will be "French Femme," reflecting the woman I never dared to be, the one who will love her sensuality, who will be softer somehow, in a way I am just beginning to discover. I will make it a place for beauty, to honor beauty for saving me during the pain of my seperation and divorce. Odd tho it may seem, Seeingand appreciating beauty is what saved my soul and my heart from despair. Beauty is what gave me my entre into a new world that let me see myself as whole and worthy of so much more than I had. So, silly as it may seem, i'll make my statement for sensuality in color and art and naughty fun accessories that make me laugh out loud even when alone, i swear from now on, I'll dare to reach for more, for meaning, for a life fully lived and I will go to bed each night singing and chock friggin full of hope!
Here's to the softest color pink, with black and white punches, and maybe even frenchie polka dots for umph! ooh la la...
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