Tonight I feel so impotent. A couple of the opeopoke I care deeply about are sinking into some terrible place. They are numb and sad and I want to help them. That works only if they want the help offered. I am so afraid they will do something stupid...Loving them isn't enough after everything is said and done. I can love them, I can hope for them, I can try to drag then into the crisis center, but when they say no, I am impotent.
It makes me crazy. I have lost so many friends to cancer this past year, some to suicide, some to drugs...Can I stand to lose any MORE ? Fuck no. Talking about meda, hope, resources...what the hell has it gained...nothing
I am frightened...and so very sad. I have re-constructed myself and life. I get it. PLEASE, chose hope. Choose help. Choose a shoulder, a hand a hard-won wisdom that I will share.
The only person I don't want to resurrect today is Carol" I don't know why the bridge fell down," Molnau...slink away you twit...Be accountable for your shit gal...just go away
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