Spring?

According to the calendar it's springtime. But, tonight it's snowing and icing and blowing sleet like a winter gale...

According to my heart and longing, it's springtime. I am healed from the winter of my marriage and divorce and ready to love or at least share me, and no one cares or dares, at least no-one I want in return.

The one man I am attracted to is younger and so oblivious to my attraction and maybe that is the way it should be. Oddly enough, I have never hurt a friendship because of sexual attraction. It's just so ironic, that he is someone who i would love to share a true friendship with, and yet, I feel like a goddamned teenager when I am near him...nervous and foolish. It passes once we start talking but i fucking laugh at myself. How could I be this old and still so foolish.

I guess the heart and mind operate on two different planes...one has nothing to do with logic, only emotion...

Maybe spring actually will come. Maybe emotion will have it's way. Maybe with time, someone will dare and care.

Hope "springs" eternal.