Mediation:
So mundane, so predictable really...My best friend J says that the best predictor of future behaviors are past behaviors....damn you J, you ARE one smart fella!
I knew going in tothe mediation session that I was worth nothing in my exes' eyes....always was that way...
I sat and listened as he spewed bullshit about how amazingly fabulous, generous, smart, skilled and ethical I am, then, he said .."see, she doesn't need me to pay her much in settlement...she can make her own money..I don't think I should have to carry her on my back"...lol
You are damned predictable sir...so, I signed off...but here's the deal. I carried you for decades...I cared for your dying, I worked so you could study and be so special that normal rules didn't apply to you, I pretended I was blind to your betrayals so that you never had to choose, never had to decide. I raised our daughters, always afraid that they'd end up like me, taking it...
So here's the funny thing. I don't care that you gaveme the absolute least amount possible.I will do just fine. In fact, I think I will soar now that I am not carrying you.
I think the disservice I did to myself and my daughters, the shitty example I set by staying too long will somewhat be undone by the new me.
p.s. not that it matters, but after I tossed you out (.i love the predictor of future behavior that cued me in to what this whole process would be like) you promised to do a collaborative divorce and then while I was moving our daughter, you went to a lawyer, hid it and lied on the legal document and said that you had decided to leave me ...all about pretense and pretend...saving face, pretending and covering your ass are what you were always about in our relationship. Now, it no longer matters...
be happy, if you know how to do that...I will be...already am. Watch out for karma tho...it is a bitch...
4 for you, 1 for me....ah that's so you...
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